3 sisters

Its nothing to do with my personal life pon..Muehehehe…Its about my fave Korean drama series…mesti lepas nie, ak akan miss banyak episodes since I got double commitment…my career & my research work…wohooo, my career gitu…It was a long time since mak hepi yg teramat….2 yrs back bila ak dpt offer letter utk sambung belajar…Yer la kan, mana la tau, kot2 apply kena reject ke, banyak je possibilities utk kena reject..yer la kan, cs-usm, sangat high standard…biasa la tu…..ooopppsss…..Tapi, itu la hakikatnyer….No one can deny it, selain high standard, ada jugak double standard, and it sooooooooooooooooo obvious….(semoga takde sesapa gugel double standard cs-usm la ek…hahahahha)….

Takmo cakap banyak2 la pasal cs-usm, walau apa pon, dekat situ la ak gain experience, knowledge, *weight* selama 4 tahun ( 3yrs degree + 1 yrs working)…ak bukan extend yer…Alhamdulillah, ak managed utk habis degree ak on time, but, masters ak, for sure la not on time…tapi pape pon, end of this yr, ak akan wrap up everything….cant wait any longer dah…penat belajar lama sangat…hahaha….

The day after tomorrow, everything will be slightly different to me….starting from next week until mid of october, im going to be busy with my ‘classes” and “researches'”…..too many things to be done, too many unfinished job awaits me….hahahah….semoga ak dapat bahagi masa sama adil, supaya dapat balance class & research…Whatever it takes, research will always be my priority, but, for this few weeks, I need to settle down with my class first, then I can focus on my research work, InsyaAllah…I believe, nothing is impossible, because the word “impossible” clearly said that I-M-POSSIBLE! So, everything seems possible & achievable, the only matter is time…hehhe…Semoga urusan dipermudahkan Allah…

Alamak, dah larik topik sesangat, mula nak citer pasal 3 sisters, lain plak yg ak citer….heheh…akan ada sambungan, terasa nak review citer 3 sisters nie la…hahaha….

Rahmat Allah, tak kira siapa, tak kira masa :D

Alhamdulillah

Tak ada perkataan lain yang dapat diungkapkan selain Alhamdulillah.

Semoga saya dapat menjadi pendidik yang sabar.

Semoga terus diberi kesabaran, keyakinan & keazaman untuk mendidik anak bangsa.

Semoga urusan dipermudahkan Allah.

Wah, teruja untuk bergelar pendidik minggu depan!

A picture speak louder than words

Stress!!!

I’ve tried, I failed and I am so stress!!!

Its nothing to do with my research work, its nothing to do with my freelance project. It is just me who failed to encounter my own emotions. I’ve tried damn hard to not to take “that” as a BIG problem, but I failed. “that” keep haunting me from being myself. It is the most hatred things when outsider ( I avoid to use this word, but the truth is, yes they are outsiders) try to plan my future. Hey guys, back off, I know what I am doing right now, its not because I want it, but Allah has planned it for me way back. Its not my plan, its Allah plan. Nothing is better than Allah plan (it is something I shouldn’t mention when everybody knows it!!). Don’t ask me to do that, to do this for your own sake, do it yourself. Don’t interfere my personal life, I know what’s the best for me, stop acting like you are my father.

I kept three things above me : – Allah, my mother & my father.

Everything would never be the same after what you’ve said to me a month ago. There are things you can’t easily take it as a joke because it’s involved emotions and because I am a GIRL with emotions!

25, single & penganggur >.<

 

So? Itu yg first ak terpikir bila people keep talking about my age, my marital status & my work status…hello, mind your own business…Kalau pon tak keje, ada ke tiap2 bulan ak mintak duit korang utk support my study? tak kan…ada ke ak kacau anak2 teruna korang ajak kawen? tak jugak kan…So, jaga la kain sendiri, tak payah nak sibuk hal ak….no offense….tapi, you people, penat la bila nak jawab soklan yg sama over and over again…ok la, ak tau korang “concern”…. it is good, and ak rasa it even better kalo korang takyah tanya…sebab selama nie pon, ak tak penah pon tanya korang cmna korang punya life….boleh kot nak pinjam kata2 nabil, lu orang ada mata, lu orang tengok, lu orang ada otak, lu orang pikir la sendirik….

Bukan ak sombong, tapi kalau korang “pakai kasut ak”, korang akan rasa pe yg ak rasa…bila korang tak kawen lagi pada umur 25, orang akan tanya, bila nak kawen…bila korang umur 25, korang masih sambung belajar, orang akan tanya, bila habis belajar….penat la deerrr nak jawab soklan2 tu….rasa cam nak tempek je kat dahi

 

Tarikh kawen : akan ditentukan bila telah bertemu jodoh yang sesuai

Tarikh grad : akan diberitahu bila selesai data collection, data analysis & final viva

 

 

Kalau dah tempek 2 soklan nie kat dahi, agak2 ada org nak tanya lagik tak? De jugak, yang sibuk nak tau hal ak, sampai ak keje part time pon nak tau gaji ak berapa….pehal korang….suke ati la gaji ak berapa pon….ak tak utang ngn korang pon….biarlah gaji ak RM1 pon, ak tak mintak pon duit korang…..hangin betol bila orang sibuk2 je nak tau sampai gaji part time ak bpa….tau la ak takde keje tetap, so what? korang nak tolong sponsor ak bayar yuran pengajian ke? nanti ak bg no akaun…..

Tapi, baru2 nie bila de orang yg close dengan ak cakap “ Awak nie dah 25, kawen pon tak lagik, keje pon tak lagik. DULU, masa umur awak, saya dah kawen, anak 1, keje tetap kat kerajaan”. menyentap ak masa makan, terus hilang selera makan.

Kenapa nak compare zaman ak dgn zaman dia, zaman dia zaman bila? zaman ak zaman bila? we came from two different era….tak mungkin sama, agak2 la nak compare pon….

nak cari suami, bukan macam pilih barang kat tesco, main rembat je…boleh ke korang cari suami tangkap muat? bukan sehari dua korang nak hidup ngn dia, smpai ke mati kot korang nak hidup dgn orang yg sama, nak dia jadi ayah kepada anak2 korang, pembimbing korang utk ke akhirat nanti…

Nak cari keje, bukan macam hari nie bagi resume, esok dah dapat confirmation letter….Bukan ak tak mintak keje, tapi belum ada rezeki….cakap senang la, yg menanggungnyer ak…

Dah ini jalan yang ALLAH tetapkan utk ak…Sapa ak nak argue apa yg ALLAH rancang. Setiap yg berlaku, ada hikmah, ada reason….benda takkan jadi for no reason, it must come with a reason….

Ok, sekian, luahan tak puas hati. :p

neves

 

Wah…lagi 4 jam nak pre-viva…macam2 feeling ada…..neves ada, nak cepat abis, sakit perut tak tentu pasal…adoiyaii…walaupun dah praktis, biasa la, neves tetap akan muncul….setelah menunggu sekian lama, akhirnya tiba jugak time ak present my own research….cuak, tapi mak cakap jangan takut…semalam mak cakap, kalo takut, ingat mak, pikir yang segala ak buat utk mak….waaaaa…..menyentap kalbu sekejap….tapi, masa tu je la, hari nie neves balik…tapi, insyaALLAH,  ak cuba buat sebaik mungkin….tak ada apa yg mustahil, hanya pemikiran kita yang memustahikan sesuatu….